July 17, 2009
You never know how much you enjoy being alone, until the sun’s rays are beaming in through your window, and you are begging for the shade of your neighbor palm.
Sticky skin, warmth bellowing in from all around you, you can feel your nerves are not quite as strong as they should be.
Cold showers, popsicles, taking a dip in your neighbor’s pool…
Heat drives anger…among other things.
Causes things to wilt…people to wilt…
But life goes on…
Who knows how people survived back in the day.
Staring through the fan in my window, gazing outside…
I wish for the director’s “Cut”, or a scene change.
I wish for the fading out of the current view, and the brilliant opening to the next chapter.
Life seems to be much more copacetic in the movies.
Barebacked, fans blowing, nothing moving except the hundreds of thoughts in my mind…
Hot air moving from one area to the next, and back…you can pretend to be comfortable.
Pressure is on, truth is revealed…but you can pretend to be comfortable.
Missing the company of my closest companion…my other half.
Wishing that months would pass by like the cars outside…quickly and without interference.
Missing long talks, text-less evenings, and never-ending laughs…
God i can’t wait for the re-acquaintance.
There is nothing to worry about…
Everything is fine and dandy…aside from the fact that life is ending as I know it.
But even so, I feel a calm peace about me…
There is a weakness that tries to break through the bricks in my skull,
Beginning to beg me not to do it…
But the bricks will not budge this time, and neither will my decision.
Man if there were only a burst of cool air…
Something to soothe the toiling in my mind, and the sweat on my forehead.
The nighttime is what I am looking for…
You never know how much you enjoy having another, until the cool moist air from the night seeps through the cracks in your window sill, enough to cause goosebumps, and the desire for closeness with that person.
Cool breeze, Light mist from the lawn, and fluffy clouds above…
Taking a walk while it is bearable…
Challenging yourself.
Enjoy that which you so rarely find…
Twirl a bit, laugh a bit, and be thankful.
Scattered, Random flowers around, like the thoughts in my mind…
It’s hard to write just one thing,
When the words just flow out of my mind all at once.
Do you understand?
